Is She or Isn’t She a Sociopath? My Thoughts on Patric Gagne’s ‘Memoir’

I’ve watched enough true crime to know that some people are wired to do very, VERY bad things—like torturing a small animal, then casually enjoying a happy meal. The fact that these humans exist creeps me out, and allegedly Patric Gagne is one of them. And boy is she happy to tell you all about it in her book, aptly titled “Sociopath.”

Before we get into this, I’ll warn you that we’re dealing with a highly unreliable narrator who wears her “HELLO! I’M A SOCIOPATH!” name badge with a bizarre sense of pride. This “memoir” was not what I expected, mainly because her stories just don’t add up, thus making me question whether she’s actually a sociopath. I have theories (*cough* narcissist *cough*), but I’ll leave it at that.
Here are my questions. If you have any insight, I would love to hear your thoughts!

Why is She So Proud of This Label? If I took a shot of whiskey every time she said, “I’m a sociopath,” I’d be wasted before reaching the second chapter. It baffles me how someone could easily latch onto this highly stigmatized diagnosis because it’s, well, creepy. I’m also baffled at how forthcoming she is with this information—even around her coworkers. Yikes. When she described herself as a “Wednesday Adams” breaking into houses with her pet ferret, things started to get clearer. She likes being different and edgy. Oh, don’t we all.

Does She Really Want to Go to Jail? I found it laughable when this extremely privileged girl claimed she wouldn’t mind going to jail because it would be more freeing. I sure wish she could’ve been caught just once while stealing cars so she could get a taste of that life. Little Miss Thang grew up in luxury, and she was hired at her daddy’s big-time Hollywood record label company without any experience. All this bravado about going to jail is just hilarious. Can someone please call her bluff the next time she breaks into a house?

So, Is She a Sociopath? It’s been fascinating reading the commentary by armchair psychologists in the Goodreads threads, but who am I to judge…or diagnose? However, I do question her motives, one being she’s way too eager to get that sociopath diagnosis, which eventually happens when she convinces her psychologist to administer some sort of test, which I’m sure she answered with a clear agenda. Why is this? Would another diagnosis (like..say..narcissistic personality disorder) be more mundane? Based on my honorary doctorate in forensic psychology (by way of murder podcasts), I know sociopaths just DO NOT CARE about having meaningful relationships. They also don’t give a fig about how they’re being perceived by others unless if there is something to be gained. Patic does, in fact, care. In social settings she is extremely self-conscious about not fitting in, but why? If she feels nothing for others, why does it matter? She expresses her love for her parents, her sister, and even her ferret. She’s also a mother and a wife, claiming she “feels a different type of love.” How does this make sense when you read through the classic symptoms of sociopathy in the DSM-5? Perhaps she’s right that so much is unknown about this diagnosis, but I still question her agenda.

Are These Stories Even True? I have a hard time believing that a 40-something can recant word-for-word conversations from her early childhood days. Some of these stories are so outlandish, they seem more like scenes from a bad Lifetime movie—particularly her altercations with a blackmailing schemer and a toxic coworker. Again, we’re dealing with an unreliable narrator who tells you in the opening chapter that she is manipulative AF, so all bets are off.

Are Her Credentials Legit? I’ll be honest; I haven’t done a deep dive into her academic history, but many others have. For someone who brandishes her Ph.D. title loud and proud on the cover, you’d think she’d talk a bit about her research on…oh, I don’t know…sociopathy??? Seems rather odd that she didn’t go there, but then again, she did confess that she’s a liar and a manipulator.

Overall Thoughts: This was a dark read, but not in a fun way. This felt like a waste of time because I wanted more expert knowledge about the innermost thoughts of a true sociopath. But all I got was a bunch of overindulgent drivel about the trials and tribulations of self-absorbed rich girl who wants SO BADLY to go against the mainstream. I have a hard time understanding how a sociopath can feel immense uncomfortable pressure from apathy. Is this really a thing? I can understand how sociopaths might struggle with isolation, but do they really ruminate about apathy?

Another question is why resort to bad things like stalking people, breaking into houses, and hurting precious kitty cats? Why not do adrenaline-junky stuff like jumping out of airplanes or running ultramarathons? It’s unsettling to think that some people can only get joy from doing dark things. Whether or not Patic is a true sociopath is anyone’s guess, but I am 100% convinced that she is creepy. My advice to anyone is to run far, far away when someone boasts about their dark personality disorder. Even if they’re not speaking the truth, keep running in the opposite direction!

Spooky Season Halloween Countdown Review: ‘Under the Cursed Moon’

The gist: Raf and his sister, Brianna, are dealing with a LOT! Their incarcerated mother is about to come home and possibly derail their lives again, and they’re being tormented by an evil force that kills children under the red moon. It’s up to Raf to break the curse before he becomes the next victim of the Caretaker–mu ha ha ha-HA!

What I liked: This book has some faults (we’ll get into that later), but the author did an amazing job with Raf. I absolutely loved this character for many reasons. He’s a fighter and a fierce protector of his sister. Their relationship gave me Dani and Max vibes from Hocus Pocus, and I could almost hear the musical score during chase scenes in the haunted forest. So, if you’re looking for a YA spooky season read, this is it!

What irked me: I loved everything about this book except for the moral of the story. The Caretaker is scary, but the more threatening dark force looming over these kids is the soon-to-be-paroled incarcerated mother. We get bits and pieces of the chaos, negligence and child endangerment Raf and Brianna endured, and I’m not okay with any of it. Raf is justifiably angry and fearful, yet his grandparents and sister just keep pestering him to embrace his mother with open arms. I’m glad this is a work of fiction, otherwise, I’d fear for their safety. Who knows what could happen when the mother falls of the wagon and whisks them away to some chaotic drug den. Come to think of it…shouldn’t she be in some sort of treatment facility or halfway house for recovering addicts instead of returning straight home to her children? As nice as it sounds to forgive and move on, life just doesn’t work that way, and I feel like this book sends the wrong message to people. Here’s my message: Don’t pressure or shame others who aren’t ready or willing to forgive. Child abuse and neglect is serious, and I don’t think the author handled this very well. Period.

The spook factor: On a scale from one to ten, I’d give this an eight on the spook-o-meter. We’re dealing with witchcraft, a child-killing demon, a haunted pond, and even a demonic furry toe! Again, perfect for Halloween reading.

Overall: Aside from the problematic morality tale, I really enjoyed this creepy adventure. I’ve seen this storyline a time or two in movies (ex: Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark and Goosebumps), but a few new elements were added to the mix to keep it fresh–including a spotted shape-shifting kitty named Balam. I recommend this to fans of R.L. Stine and Mary Downing Hahn.

Spooky Reads: Riley Sager’s ‘Middle of the Night’ Review

Next up in my 31 Books of Halloween reading roundup, I’m reviewing Riley Sager’s latest twisty thriller, Middle of the Night! This might be somewhat of an unpopular opinion (y’all are hard on him on Goodreads!), but I love his work. This one is great for spooky season because there are a lot of paranormal elements weaved into the mystery, including a creepy “science” institute just around the block, creepy figures lurking in the woods, and cryptic messages from the dead. Here are my thoughts:

The gist: Our protagonist, Ethan, camps out in his backyard and wakes up to find the tent slashed and his best friend gone! Thirty years later, he returns to his childhood home and finds himself in the middle of a mystery when his dead best friend, Billy, sends messages from beyond the grave. He soon learns many people in his upper-class suburban neighborhood have something to hide—including Billy.

What I Liked: The paranormal element took this mystery to the next level. I love a good ghost story, especially when restless spirits are seeking justice! What more could you ask for during spooky season? I also loved that this story took the safest place you could think of—an upper-class, tight-knit suburban neighborhood—and turned it into a place of nightmares! This is the kind of book that makes me check my windows and doors at night…which is a good thing because I’m a weirdo who loves being scared.

What Irked Me: My one and only gripe is the overly precocious kid. When Ethen moves back home, he reunites with his former babysitter, and crush, who is the mother of a highly intelligent, well-read child. Why do authors use this gimmick so much? Maybe this is a way to add to the kid’s likeability, but I find it to be unrealistic and annoying.

Thoughts on the main character: Ethan is a little mopey and withdrawn, yet I warmed up to him when he started interacting with the kid genius next door. We don’t really know much about him, other than he worked as a teacher, yet he doesn’t care too much for kids. Now that I think about it, it was hard connecting with a character who has zero interests and passions. He just chose that profession to follow in his dad’s footsteps. Mostly his entire life has been haunted by that fateful night, so that’s about all we know about him. There’s a side plot involving his wife, but I figured out the “tiwst” to that little mystery right away.

Overall thoughts: This is a solid paranormal thriller packed with shady suspects, making me wonder about the neighbors I wave “hello” to while walking my dog. I’m just glad I don’t live within walking distance of a creepy science institute hidden deep in the woods.

Disappointing Horror Reads: ‘The House that Horror Built’ Review

October is here, and I’m excited to embark on my lofty 31 Books of Halloween reading extravaganza! First up is my most recent read, “The House that Horror Built.” The premise and the cover drew me in, so why not give this author one more chance? I DNFed “The Horseman” because it was the silliest version of “The Legend of Sleepy Hollow” that I’ve ever encountered, but perhaps it could’ve been a fluke, right? Not so much. This one was a supreme dud as well. Let’s get into it:

The Gist: A downtrodden single mom, Harry, takes a job as house cleaner for a famous horror movie director. Imagine a disgraced Wes Craven who stopped making slashers due to a scandal involving a missing wife and son. Ooooh—intrigue! His house if full of movie props that torment Harry while she’s dusting and mopping.

What I liked: I really wanted to like this book because the setup is just so creepy cool for us horror movie fans who would love to have a peek inside a legendary director’s creepy mansion. So, the one and only aspect of this book that won me over was the spooky haunted mansion atmosphere.

What irked me: This book is a slow burn, and not in a good way. The burn was more of a spark that fizzled out almost immediately. Most of it had to do with Harry’s backstory, which seemed like a lot of filler that had little to do with her situation in the haunted mansion. Then, when the plot starts cooking toward the tail end of the book, I was hit with such a silly ending that was, quite frankly, unimaginative. I was hoping for some sort of resolution for Harry and her precocious 14-year-old son, Gabe (seriously, no kid talks like this), but it all came to a screeching halt. Rude!

What confused me: Okay, I’m no mathematician, but I’m pretty good at adding single digits. When Harry and Gabe moved into the director’s sprawling mansion, they had to put a twin bed in the library for the kid. Umm…how is this a mansion? Another thing that perplexed me was Harry’s financial predicament. She spotted the well-to-do biological father in town, so she can easily find him and sue him for child support. Why was this not a thought, especially when they were teetering on the verge of homelessness?

Overall thoughts: This book was a complete waste of time. If you want an atmospheric haunted house book, check out “Naomi’s Room” by Jonathan Aycliffe or “Woman in Black” by Susan Hill. Plus, you can never go wrong with the classics by Shirley Jackson and E.F. Benson.

Four Paws Up for ‘All the Best Dogs’ by Emily Jenkins 

A big thanks to the publisher for providing me with this ARC! One look at this cover—and the title—and I knew I had to read this cute little book filled with adorable dogs romping around a Brooklyn park. This is a very cute little book that delivers feel-good dog stories without the tears and tissues at the end.

I enjoyed following the stories of the dogs and their families, who are all going through life’s challenges. Even though this is a fun and fluffy book of dog stories, we’re dealing with some weighty issues—from dealing with a mom in rehab, to living with anxiety amidst major life changes, to losing a best friend.

I can see a lot of youngsters finding at least one relatable character in this ensemble cast of dog lovers. My only gripe is that it’s too short, and I want more dog park fun! I highly, highly recommend this one for parents who like to read to their kiddos. The illustrations are super cute, and I’m sure this will be a gorgeous hardback once it hits the shelves on November 5.

Four Paws Up for ‘Tator Tot and Shadow: Welcome to Fabulous Las Vegas’

I just want to give a shout out to my good friend, Laurie Eden, for publishing her third children’s book–copyedited by yours truly! It’s packed with gorgeous illustrations and fun info about sightseeing attractions in Vegas, baby Vegas!!!

It’s always a good time traveling with these pups to some of our nation’s most exciting cities. If you’re not familiar with this series, your kiddos are in for a treat! In this installment, you get to travel alongside her rescue dogs to some of the most entertaining and historical landmarks in Vegas. Who knew that “Sin City” could be so kid-friendly? In addition to catching the travel bug, your youngster will learn more about the importance of dog rescue, an issue that is very near and dear to my heart. Oh, and did I mention that the illustrations are gorgeous? Chef’s kiss to the author and the illustrator!

These books would make great gifts, so buy a copy ahead of the holiday rush! Here’s a link to her Etsy site.

Joe Lansdale Delivers Another Winner with ‘Sugar on the Bones’

I don’t mean to brag, but I bought this book at a BookPeople author event starring none other than Joe Lansdale! He is always entertaining at his book signings, and I’m happy to note that he is super nice to his fans. I fumbled while asking him a question about “The Donut Legion” and he took it all in stride. Seriously, y’all, I’m terrible at any kind of public speaking.

I’m also happy to report that this is a stellar Hap and Leaonard mystery filled with evil villains–including a sinister woman with purple eyes. Side note: I had no idea people could be born with purple eyes, but after a quick Google, I discovered that these natural beauties exist in the world, and Elizabeth Taylor was one of them.

Aside from that fun trivia fact, I really enjoyed this new installment, especially the colorful East Texas characters. I had family in Gladewater, so I can attest that the people over there are WEIRD, and I have no doubt Lansdale gets plenty of material whenever he leaves the house. As per usual, the pacing is great, the wisecracks are snappy, and the murder scenes are grisly. But what I love most about these books are the main characters. Hap and Leonard are rough and tough, yet they have soft underbellies that show when they do things like taking two young kids under their wings at the boxing studio. That said, they can be a**holes too, especially toward the beginning of this book when they turned down a potential client who later ended up burnt to a crisp–yikes!

Out of guilt, Hap and Leanord decide to take on her case, which involved two missing girls. Soon enough, they learn this is so much more than a simple missing-person’s case when they find clues leading to a highly organized crime ring. Things escalate VERY QUICKLY, when the bad guys catch wind of Hap and Leonard’s investigations. It’s a good thing they have connections (mainly the sharp-shooting Vanilla) because these killers are BAD NEWS! I’ll leave it right here to avoid spoilers, but I will say that this is one heck of a ride that I didn’t want to end. I’m interested to see what happens in the next book because Lansdale just dropped a bombshell about one of the main characters that could change everything!!!

Two Stars for ‘She Doesn’t Have a Clue’

I have many thoughts on this rom-com/cozy mystery mashup, but let’s start on a positive note. I loved the locale–a creepy mansion with hidden rooms in the San Juan Islands. Sidenote: I highly recommend vacationing there because it is absolutely stunning! Here’s a visual of my REI bike tour of the islands:

Okay, so back to the book. I enjoyed being transported to this gorgeous place, only this time, I’m stuck in a spooky mansion with a murderer on the loose! I loved the Nancy Drew aspect of the mansion’s hidden rooms and spooky corridors. I’ll also give the author snaps for the funny quips and witty banter between our plucky main character and her “Hot-Stralian” love interest. So, if you enjoy a rom com with slapstick humor, you’ve come to the right place.

Alright, now let’s get down to the real talk. While reading this book, I realized that X-rated rom-com/cozy mysteries are NOT my jam. I enjoy a splash of romance in my cozies, but I can do without the explicit sex scenes that happen smack dab in the middle of a suspenseful moment when the killer runs away! I mean, who does that? Maybe it’s just me, but if I just survived a harrowing, life-threatening moment, sex with a hot Australian would be the last thing on my mind.

I hate it when a story gets interrupted, and I have to endure an entire chapter of sexy shenanigans before jumping back into the mystery again. This is why I don’t like musicals. Right when I’m getting into the story, a song and dance breaks out like a prolonged commercial break. It’s just not for me.

As for the mystery, I thought it was pretty well done with red-herrings and a mansion full of shady suspects. None of the characters pulled me in, including the MC who just seemed silly, especially with her ridiculous “sleuthing sweater” that she wears while thinking through her plots. Why anyone insist on wearing a hideously ugly, scratchy sweater on a routine basis is beyond me. I guess this is an attempt to make her seem quirky and cute, but I just found it to be annoying. Maybe that’s my problem. I’m not a fan of the overly quirky, cute characters. It just seems forced an unrealistic to me, especially when gimmicks like the “sleuthing sweater” are involved. Oh, and I would be remiss to not mention the MC’s TSTL (Too Stupid to Live) antics during the climax. I have to be super vague here to avoid spoilers, but I will say that this scene was absolutely ludicrous and highly unnecessary. At this point, I was rooting for the villain because the MC obviously had a death wish.

Overall, I don’t recommend this book to cozy mystery purists, such as myself. However, rom-com fans might enjoy the silly banter and smutty chapters.

A big thanks to the publisher for the ARC!

Hello, World! We Launched a BookTube!

So, word on the street is that traditional book blogs are as antiquated as boomboxes. HOWEVER, I refuse to stop in defiance of all things techy and trendy! I’m an unemployed writer in need of an outlet, and this is all I’ve got. That said, it would be a disservice to my fellow readers to not branch out and reach ALL the audiences, so I’m launching a new BookTube series with my fellow reader, Mariam! This girl is a speed-reading machine–and she’s got exquisite taste in books! So, please watch, bookmark, subscribe and tell all your friends!

Sidenote: We’re new to this, so please bear with our lackluster backdrops!

As for the first book on my TBR pile, The Cursed Moon, it was a three-star read. Here are my thoughts:

The gist: Raf and his sister, Brianna, are dealing with a LOT! Their incarcerated mother is about to come home and possibly derail their lives again, and they’re being tormented by an evil force that kills children under the red moon. It’s up to Raf to break the curse before he becomes the next victim of the Caretaker–mu ha ha ha-HA!

What I liked: This book has some faults (we’ll get into that later), but the author did an amazing job with Raf. I absolutely loved this character for many reasons. He’s a fighter and a fierce protector of his sister. Their relationship gave me Dani and Max vibes from Hocus Pocus, and I could almost hear the musical score during chase scenes in the haunted forest. So, if you’re looking for a YA spooky season read, this is it!

What irked me: I loved everything about this book except for the moral of the story. The Caretaker is scary, but the more threatening dark force looming over these kids is the soon-to-be-paroled incarcerated mother. We get bits and pieces of the chaos, negligence and child endangerment Raf and Brianna endured, and I’m not okay with any of it. Raf is justifiably angry and fearful, yet his grandparents and sister just keep pestering him to embrace his mother with open arms. I’m glad this is a work of fiction, otherwise, I’d fear for their safety. Who knows what could happen when the mother falls of the wagon and whisks them away to some chaotic drug den. Come to think of it…shouldn’t she be in some sort of treatment facility or halfway house for recovering addicts instead of returning straight home to her children? As nice as it sounds to forgive and move on, life just doesn’t work that way, and I feel like this book sends the wrong message to people. Here’s my message: Don’t pressure or shame others who aren’t ready or willing to forgive. Child abuse and neglect is serious, and I don’t think the author handled this very well. Period.

The spook factor: On a scale from one to ten, I’d give this an eight on the spook-o-meter. We’re dealing with witchcraft, a child-killing demon, a haunted pond, and even a demonic furry toe! Again, perfect for Halloween reading.

Overall: Aside from the problematic morality tale, I really enjoyed this creepy adventure. I’ve seen this storyline a time or two in movies (ex: Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark and Goosebumps), but a few new elements were added to the mix to keep it fresh–including a spotted shape-shifting kitty named Balam. I recommend this to fans of R.L. Stine and Mary Downing Hahn.

One Star for ‘Just for the Summer’ by Abbie Jimenez

The Gist:  Two unlucky-in-love, attractive 20-somethings find each other through a Reddit thread titled “Am I the Asshole?” Is this seriously what it’s like to be dating in 2024? Yeesh!  Enter the gimmicky plot device: Both Emma and Justin decide to fake-date each other to break a curse. You see, Justin’s ex-girlfriends all find true love after dating him, and despite his movie star good looks, great job and affable personality, he just can’t find his person. Since you can’t see my face right now, picture the meme of Brady Bunch Marsha saying, “Sure, Jan.” Turns out, Emma has the same curse (much more believable in her case), so she reaches out to him after reading his desperate Reddit rant and the push-and-pull romance ensues.

What I Liked: In hindsight, I should have DNFed this book and moved on to something more worth my time, but the snappy dialogue kept it somewhat interesting. The author has clearly mastered the dry and snarky millennial humor. Therefore, I will throw in one singular star.

The Romance: Although this author tries very hard to put a new, creative twist on the usual fake-dating trope, the “let’s just date for experimental purposes” idea isn’t all that revolutionary. So, despite not wanting any longterm commitment (I’ll get into that later), Emma convinces her best friend to forfeit their trip to Hawaii to meet with a stranger from a Reddit thread. Can someone please help me make sense out this? Do people really resort to such extreme measures to find love? Anyhoo, the guy is just perfect— like the sweetest, most obedient golden retriever you’ll ever meet. They both seem to be smitten with each other, but the chemistry just isn’t there. Maybe the romance would’ve been more believable if they at least kissed before the book was more than halfway over! Geez—Miss Jimenez—way to drag it out.

The Main Character:  In a word, Emma is problematic. Due to her childhood trauma, she can’t form attachments with people. She enjoys living out of a suitcase and roaming from state to state with no place to call home, which begs the question: Why is she trying to break a curse with the goal of landing a committed, romantic relationship?  She clearly doesn’t want one, so why even go on this quest? My frustration ratchets up a few notches when her pathological mother enters the scene. Does Emma grow a backbone and draw some boundaries? Does she listen to Justin and her best friend’s warnings? No! She keeps letting the woman into her life because she “chooses empathy, not anger.” [insert “Sure, Jan,” meme here]. I’m sorry, y’all, but I can’t deal with Emma. Maybe it’s because I actually was tormented by a malignant narcissist of a mother back in the day. Here’s the thing with authors: despite their best intentions, they can do a lot of harm when writing about things they don’t TRULY understand. Sure, they can research this stuff and talk to therapists, but unless they have a Ph.D. on the subject or actually lived these experiences, they can get it all wrong and make readers like myself feel unvalidated and downright angry.

The Setting: I’m looking at a beautiful book cover depicting two people and a dog frolicking into the lake or ocean. So, throughout the book, I kept wondering WHERE ARE THE SUMMERY VIBES?! Considering the heavy subject matter, it would’ve been nice to get a little break with some ice cream on the boardwalk or maybe some windsurfing, but nope. I know they’re in a cute little town somewhere near Duluth, but they might as well be anywhere because the summery setting is nonexistent.

What Irked Me: Aside from Emma’s meaningless search for love, she has a way of gaslighting Justin’s very valid anger issues. He has to kiss his footloose-and-fancy-free bachelor life goodbye because his mother is going to prison, and he’s left in charge of all his kiddo siblings for six years! When he expresses his valid reasons for being angry to Emma, she hits him with the ol’ “choose empathy over anger” sermon. Wow, Emma! So helpful. Way to gaslight someone who needs a shoulder to cry on. Sheesh.

What’s Missing: I’m not sure if I’ll read another Abbie Jimenez book again, but I might if she could close some plot holes in her next installment. I want to know what happened to the rescued raccoon babies—which, by the way, were the best part of the entire book. And what’s the deal with Justin and his incarcerated mother? Where do they go from here? Clearly it’s all about Emma, but I stopped caring about her midway through the book.

Overall Thoughts: This is not the beachy summer romance I signed up for. Honestly, I don’t know why I didn’t kick this book to the curb the moment Emma made it clear she was just in Minnesota to mess with Justin’s head. This really was a frustrating reading experience. I need to go grab my new Stephen King book to break out of this slump. He never lets me down!